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Not just Er

Do you think there'll be loads of parties on Monday, republican parties? British republicans, obvs. It is quite annoying that that word can represent such wildly different  views, but there you go. I don't want to watch the funeral. Apart from anything else one of my big rules is no telly before six o'clock. But I don't want to watch it anyway. I don't need to show my respects, which to be honest are pretty small. I stopped to ponder then, whether I do have any respects to pay her... She kept her gob shut, which is pretty astonishing, but in doing so she let some awful shite pass without comment. She did a good job turning up and opening things, shaking hands with rows of people but as work goes it's not that hard, compared with, say, being a bus driver or a teacher let alone anyone at all working in the health service, and she was amply rewarded. She probably didn't have any say in what was done abroad in her name and to be fair, most of the empire/commonwealth whatever you call it, has gained independence under her queenage, but going round the world queening it about is still fucking bollocks, and that's without mentioning bailing out her fucking son. I don't even care about the end of an era aspect, that she was queen since before I was born, that I've known nothing else. Nothing will be any different in my life, once everyone shuts up moaning and the telly gets back to normal, except the picture on stamps and coins, though that will take a while. Maybe it's because of Sam. Losing a daughter at 41 after years of illness makes it hard to feel sad about a 96 year old woman dying, suddenly and easily from the sound of it. 
But enough of that. I'm meant to be (according to my therapist) getting in touch with the vulnerable aspects of my character, the part she likes to call Little Anna, the part I usually keep right Over There, out of sight, out of mind. But I can't find it, not tonight anyway.

12:13 a.m. - 16.09.22

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