annanotbob2's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Day 242 This is what I wrote in the memoir group tonight. I didn't get to read out as I had last week and there are too many of us to all read every week. I don't know if I would have done - I don't think I want to come out as a bereaved mother or whatever it is that I am. We'd talked about writing in scenes, each one set in a time and a place and having a beginning, middle and end, so that's what I tried to do here. Playing rounders, desperately, in a clearing in Black Park, just off the motorway, somewhere near Slough. Cold October, Sammie in her wheelchair, wrapped in blankets, in her bright pink fleecy jacket, her hair whipping round her face in the wind. The family, this motley crew, summoned by the care home, crowded into her room for what we thought was something mundane about her and her life there, her MS. The dour faced old nurse in her navy uniform telling us Sam can't swallow any more - you (she meant us, me, her mother), need to decide whether she should have a feeding tube or if nature should take its course. By which she meant let Sam starve to death. OK, she said. Now fuck off till tomorrow, then come back and tell us what we should do.
All good. xxx 10:35 p.m. - 11.11.20 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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