annanotbob2's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Day 269 I'm falling into the pit and my every instinct is to hide. I'm keeping up appearances, getting out, taking photos, posting them with bland words, I have no idea why. Yes I do - as I wrote that the answer came - I'm ashamed. I feel like a total failure of a human being - I have two live adult children, a grandson, a good dog, a decent home, a pension, friends, art classes, yoga classes, I live by the sea and I hate everyone and everything. Now I can go to bed as I wrote something. I can't even manage good self care - why do I have to write? Why can't I just go to bed when I'm tired? 12:11 a.m. - 09.12.20 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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