annanotbob2's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- BP Still not doing great. I meant to go swimming but woke up too late, took my blood pressure again, thinking I needed to after all the palaver, and fuck me, it was 180/118, back in the danger zone and that undid everything. I'm operating too close to the edge of the pit, where just a small thing can make me lose the plot. I didn't make it to swimming as I'd have needed to just get dressed and go straight out to catch the tide, instead of which I was going round and round trying to make sense of it all. What I'd like would be to sit down with my own doctor and thrash it all out, but so would hundreds of other people. The NHS is being run into the ground, leaving us really on a par with the US. Almost. After a while, and after having something to eat, I decided to do a guided meditation, back on Headspace with lovely Andy P. Blood pressure after a ten minute meditate: 148/89. From the top corner of the red for danger, down to the yellow, mild HBP. So I stopped panicking but had to go back to bed. I don't understand how it can spike up like that. 12:05 a.m. - 23.10.22 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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