annanotbob2's Diaryland
Diary
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Rose
- I'm liking numbered paras these days so here they are again
- For the last few days I've been reading my old blogs, hitting the 'random entry' button on diaryland again and again. Fucking hell, though, I've had a time of it, haven't I? I mean, I know that but when I flit about it's more than I remember. And it seems I've gone on and on letting myself have a moment or two to feel the sorrow or whatever before sucking it up, squashing it down and carrying on till I've become numb and unable to do anything else.
- Today I went to a garden centre and found the plant I want to be a memorial plant for Sam. A friend from work gave me a card with some cash to buy a plant - she said when her sister died she'd done this and she talks to it as if it is her sister and finds that a comfort. I've had odd moments of looking for something suitable but always got overwhelmed. When I asked for help from gardening groups they always suggested plant varieties named Samantha but none of them were very appealing so I've left it. But today in the garden centre I thought of roses, a small rose to have in a pot in case I move on. There are lots of what's called patio roses, designed for pots but none of them seemed to be scented and really, there's something miserable and half-hearted about a rose without a scent, isn't there? There was a guy dead-heading the roses so I asked him and he suggested this one. It's a small scented white rose, with shades of pink as the flowers fade and is actually called Remember. It's a hybrid tea rose, which generally I don't like but this one is cool. I'm going to buy it on Monday, her birthday, with a glazed blue pot to look good in winter, and I shall plant lots of bulbs in there as well, of the tiny things, the tete a tete miniature daffs and the tiny irises which all flower early before the rose gets going.
- That's all really
- But thank you for reading and you be careful out there
12:19 a.m. - 18.08.22
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