annanotbob2's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Better I had a real dip there but I was good. I got in touch with people and made arrangements to see them, one at a time, over a few days and they were all lovely and supportive and it was cool and I came out of the black place. I fell behind with my Bella bits, but I told myself that was OK, because it is. I shall do some in a minute, when I finish this. Today I met Son in Brighton and after he went to catch his train home I went to see an art project in the Pavilion Gardens. It's called Arrivals/Departures and is two big electronic boards like you'd have at an airport or station, but you're invited to add the names of people who have been born or died. I added Sam to both - her names (her birth name and her adult, married name) came to the top within a minute and it was so weird and powerful. I did really like seeing her name especially at the top, a big acknowledgement, but then I was overwhelmed at her being gone, not seeing it, being there on my own, no one who knew her seeing it. That kind of stuff. Son hadn't wanted to come but I couldn't remember what it was, just a thing I wanted to check out, so I didn't sell it to him. This may be a link to the radio 4 bookclub programme I'm on, airing at 4.00 BST on Sunday. I may have been edited out - they recorded more than an hour and it's down for 28 mins, but there you go - Lianne Moriarty - very interesting and worth a listen. I sent an email to Saturday Live (also on Radio 4) for their 'Thanks' slot, to say thank you to the lorry driver who saved me from sleeping rough on a January night in Dieppe, in 1976. It was only when I had the email reply from them, saying they'd get to me in turn, that I remembered the reason I was fleeing to Spain (via Dieppe) was that my then husband had raped me and I had no recourse to law. Not a crime, not even grounds for divorce. By marrying, I was deemed to have consented to him having sex with me whenever he liked, no matter what I felt at any given time. I manage to completely forget this - it sinks down right out of sight. Three Good Things Here's my Bella bit - I keep doing bits with the virus and bits without - I can decide one way or the other at some point. Bella was fed up. She’d had that letter from Paul, Paul the mad kid she’d teamed up with all those years ago to solve the mystery of the skeleton on the demolition site, without involving the police and ruining bloody bastard Barry’s precarious demolition business. After all this time he’d written her a letter, a brilliant, chatty letter, wanting to see her again but now there was this virus and no one was allowed out. 11:15 p.m. - 01.05.21 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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