annanotbob2's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Thursday Here's the Bella bit I wrote the other day. We were given song titles about birds - I chose this one with no idea where it would go so just kept on scribbling and was surprised at the reception it got. "Like a bird, on a wire, like a drunk in some midnight choir, I have tried, in my way, to be free" Bella was trying not to scream. She was glad her friendship with Naomi was back on good terms, especially now there was this lockdown, but she didn't know how many times she'd be able to hear this terrible, droning voice wafting out of Naomi's window and burrowing into her head, even with her own windows shut. It was awful, like anti-singing. She wished she still had a CD player - all her Boyzone albums were on CD. She could just do with a bit of Ronan - how did she not have a CD player? Notes: 1. I love Leonard Cohen but have noticed some people don't. 2. I remembered when watching The One Show the other night, that in my first novel, Bella had had a massive crush on Ronan Keating, lead singer then of Boyzone, at the time in the news for being outed as an unrepentant virgin, saving it till his wedding night. I didn't follow his career let alone his sex life, but there he was on the telly, all gown up, just as I was listening to Bella again, so I thought I'd pop him in. Also, 3. I suddenly thought that I needed to set this in lockdown, to get some of the everyday weird shit we'll forget otherwise. I can add it to the other stuff if need be. So today I didn't even wake up till nearly one. I then settled into a right panic over what to do - I have yin yoga at 5.30 and wanted to do a painting class and a walk and have something to eat and wash the dishes and phone M and it wasn't possible to do it all so I wasted an hour fretting about it and doing nothing, then had some mushrooms on toast and went for a walk up on the downs. As soon as I got out into the air I remembered that these are weird times - I don't have to do it all, I can't do it all and none of it matters. Three Good Things - even on days that feel awful there are always three good things. Keep safe xxx 11:47 p.m. - 28.01.21 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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