annanotbob2's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Crash Never made it as far as getting dressed today. No art class - I must have been mad - when I envisioned it, I was sat snuggly amongst people I knew from previous classes, totally relaxed, sketching away. Reality is a room full of strangers, a round of introducing yourself, a teacher who could be any kind of nightmare - I always hope for the best but I've encountered a few horrors. Couldn't face it at all, couldn't talk myself round, just couldn't. Did manage to phone and ask if the money could be moved forward to the spring course instead - can't bear missing the first class - and the receptionist said yes, to call again when not so distressed. Bloke came round, I took two valium and dozed on the sofa while he pottered about, including making me a big pot of lentil and ham hock soup from scratch. Sooooooo nice. At home I'm either alone or have guests, in which case I'm expected to be at least awake and listening to them. Hearing him going about his business was soothing and safe and just what I needed. I messaged the ex-diarylander, saying I may or may not make it tomorrow. I hope I do, but if I can't, I can't - I'm not going to inflict myself on her if it's been a mega-struggle - totally pointless. So to bed, and we'll see how tomorrow goes. 11:44 p.m. - 22.10.13 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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