annanotbob2's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Hell, yeah Example of me getting ahead of myself: feel ok, not great but 'normal', start thinking like 'normal' person (so soon - am I mad?), decide to make a CD to sing in the car after hearing a version of this on XFactor Aw, man, I love that. When the kids were little and things had all gone tits up, this was what I'd play after I'd taken a big deep breath and roused myself to get back into the fray. I'm going to play it again tomorrow, nice and loud. Anyway, I made a list of songs on a bit of paper, came to the PC and couldn't for the life of me work out where to start. I began to make myself work it out - got as far as thinking it comes down to either opening a place to collect files, or starting to download them - but it was so hard doing that thinking, stretching myself into a big mess over something I can leave till later! But I realised it, as soon as the physical symptoms of panic started, I thought what the fuck, I don't need to be doing this. It doesn't matter. Now I'm watching Crossfire Hurricane on telly - think I may turn off the computer, have a big fat spliff and do a bit of Granny-dancing Laters xx 9:42 p.m. - 17.11.12 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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