annanotbob2's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- A lazy bastard living in a suit Well. Went to bed at eleven last night, woke up at one this afternoon and still feel tired. I know the plan is to take it easy for a few days but don�t really know what to do with myself apart from sit around in my jimjams and smoke lots of fags. Shattered. And very low on Rizlas, so will have to go out at some point, hence writing here in Word first, so I can just upload it when I get on the wifi somewhere, rather than trying to write in some crowded cafe where the sun is either in my eyes or on the screen and I can�t have a smoke when I need a little ponder on a thought or a sentence. This last week of visitors was both great and awful. I had one moment of peace and loveliness late at night, when I came back from the bathroom. I peeped into the bedroom where I could hear ED, Grandson and F, all breathing the heavy deep rhythms of sleep. In the front room, YD and M were both in bed and engrossed in their books. All good. Not great that my best moment was when they�d all shut up, but there you go. And her grandmother died. After the false announcement of her passing a while ago, ED was determined to spend time with her while she was here, so we called Auntie L, only to discover that Nanny was in hospital, at the end of her days. I took her to the hospital, the same one, the same ward, that Ma had been in, the same fat seagull squawking on the window ledge, all almost exactly as it had been two years before - a tiny frail old lady, half way between this world and the next. She lasted till Wednesday, but then she was gone. Grateful for: peace and quiet; sunshine through my windows; surviving this far; my beautiful home; another day. Love and hugs xxx 4:24 p.m. - 19.02.12 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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